And that's a wrap...

Well, here we are…

Austin Bergstorm airport.

Heading home and then driving out to go visit some friends out in California.

Working on about 3 hours of sleep because your boy was out living life last night.

I’ve never really felt this or done this all that much in my life.

I’ve been so closed off to fun shit because I’ve always pointed myself towards the ideology that these things are a distraction.

And to a degree, they can be…

But I think a lot of my deterrence towards having a good time without judging myself has come from a place of fear which I touched on yesterday in my post.

You’re going to fall behind.

You’re going to lose.

You should be working.

These thoughts from this incessant voice haven’t left me alone since I was 17 years old.

Took me 6 years to realize it’s not me, it’s literally just a program I installed from other people.

They told me this is how you become successful.

What I didn’t stop to ask was what their definition of success was…

And I can now see it’s a very close-minded one because it fails to let you enjoy the human experience.

Life is not supposed to be spent in front of a desk…

Chasing digital numbers in your bank account which mean fuck all…

Trying to accumulate stuff to make yourself feel somewhat better about your life…

Life can be so much more than that.

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t a “Don Draper move to hippyville and become a monk” sort of thing…

I still very much so enjoy my work and I’m looking forward to getting back into the flow of it after this weekend.

I also can’t wait to hit the gym and get a full workout as well.

What I’m saying is this…

Do something.

Live a little.

Let loose.

And stop trying to prove yourself to the world…

I promise you no one gives a fuck.

Just enjoy the ride, because you’re only here once.

Walking around with dogmatic beliefs about the world, and to never allow yourself to live…

I’ve done it for the past 6 years.

Thank god I didn’t do it for the next 30.

And hey maybe you’re like me…

Super hard-headed and need to experience it for yourself in order to learn the lesson.

That’s one way to skin the cat…

May just be better though to take my advice and stop being so hard on yourself.

Go have some fucking fun.

You deserve it.